Life without booze is definitely better than the way I was living before, with the endless round of drinking to the point of passing out, waking with a stinking hangover, dragging myself through the day, swearing I would not drink that night, before repeating the process all over again. An endless loop, which I was… Continue reading Uncertainty and Contradiction
I take part in a life drawing class on Thursday evenings. This week we had a difficult pose, with lots of what is known as 'foreshortening'. It means the perspective was tricky, and so the pose was a hard one to draw. When I got home, I pinned the drawing to the wall in order… Continue reading A Change of Perspective
I had an extract of my book published on a recovery website this week (https://soberistas.com/) It has had some good responses, and it seems to have struck a chord with some people who are struggling. This gives me a sense that I have made a difference to some people. This is the reason I am… Continue reading No More Self-Blame
For many years I hated myself for my drinking. Growing up, I witnessed my mum and sister slowly destroying themselves with heroin. I did not want to repeat their mistakes, and I did not want to inflict that pain onto my daughter. But I did. At least, a part of me was convinced that I… Continue reading From Surviving to Thriving
I am writing this blog and have published my memoir under an assumed name. Why is this? Due to the stigma surrounding problem drinking, the mess that goes along with that and the potential it has to impact on my life. I live in the UK, and upon returning to work after my rehab, I… Continue reading Addiction and Stigma
I have had the idea of writing my story and of sharing it for some time. I finally did it, but it took me two years to actually publish it and get it out there. I wanted to make some sense of the things that happened to me, and writing them down and sharing them… Continue reading A new beginning?